First Day of School

Tomorrow is the first day that my kids will be away from me, with people that aren't regular babysitters or family members. We've been talking a lot lately about me working more and in order to do that, childcare is a must. We weighed our options, daycare, parents day out programs, in home sitters. I visited multiple facilities to find the best one for us. I finally found one that I think will be a great fit. B is pumped about her first day of school. Granted this is a parents day out program and it's one day a week from 9-3. But that's a long day for either of them to be away from me with what will be initially, a whole lot of strangers. Thankfully, I have one child that loves to socialize. B loves kids, adults, new places, new toys, etc. R on the other hand is a mess. He'll scream nonstop for 1.5 hours in the nursery at church. (This is one of the reasons that we haven't been to church in weeks. No, make that months.) I'm nervous. I'm suffering from anxiety. I chose this place because it's the right price, it's located close to our home, the class sizes are tiny and it's part of church so they do bible lessons and activities rooted in principles that are healthy and important for their little minds. It's perfect. Hopefully my kids will think so too. I've already called the director this evening asking last minute questions. Stupid questions, but my babies are starting school tomorrow and it's breaking my heart. Do they have to be in childcare? No. But at some point I may start working a lot more and if and when that point arrives I need to know that my kids can handle being separated from me for longer than a few hours with a babysitter. First World Problems?....I think so

On a much happier note: